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Even though I have these registers for every item, sometimes the register for an item gets misplaced or gets reset back to undecided and I'll have to ask someone what my preference used to be.
Touch and Emotions
I don't see how people remember touch, but some supposedly do. I've heard that some people, especially actors, can also remember what it's like to be hot or cold. Actors can also remember emotional events and use them in a scene. I heard a child actor say to Johnny Carson that when he has to cry, he remembers when his dog died, then he can cry whenever he wants. I can't do any of that.
A lot of the self-help books and tapes by people like Anthony Robbins don't work on me either. You have to be able to visualize things and move them around in your mind and you also have to put yourself into different emotional states. Those kinds of books and tapes are for a much different person than I am. No wonder actors love Anthony Robbins so much. His stuff sounds like it was made to work just for them.
Words
Many times a day, since I was a kid, I've had trouble finding the word I want to say or type. It's usually a word that I use all of the time. I can describe what it is and even point to it if it's an object in the room, but I can't find it's name in my memory. It reminds me of mental stuttering. The problem might be related to Dysnomia or nominal aphasia/amnesic aphasia.
My spelling abilities also come and go. Sometimes I can type in a page of information with no spelling errors and other times I will spell the same word three different ways on the same page.
Repetitive Tasks
I can do a repetitive activity for a certain amount of time with no trouble and then I'll forget what to do for a few seconds, to a few minutes. This seems similar to my word accessing problem. It can be any repetitive activity that I like or dislike.
I even have trouble playing a video game or using a computer. I'll be pressing the same buttons or selecting the same items with a mouse pointer and then I'll forget what a button does or what an icon does or means. After a few seconds or minutes I'll usually remember again.
Lists
I think that everyone should make lists but many people don't seem to need them. I have a hard enough time remembering one thing I'm supposed to get, I don't see how people remember five or more things.
From the time I was around six years old, I was amazed by the memory abilities of most other kids. A mother could tell her kid to buy a certain amount of things at a corner grocery store, and the kid could remember what to buy from being just told once and would come back with everything he or she was told to get.
I can't remember lists because I forget most of it or my brain replaces and rearranges things. The first time I consciously realized that I had a problem was when I was eight years old. My mother told me to go to a small local store to buy a bag of shredded coconut. After I got to the store, I had one of those anxiety feelings where you feel like you're going to cry because I couldn't remember the name of the thing I was supposed to get. I remembered it was white and after agonizing over it for a while, I bought a bag of white rice.
My problem with lists also shows up if I repeat a list of numbers when given a test. If I can just concentrate on hearing the sound patterns and rhythms of the test giver's voice, without trying to visualize the numbers, I can usually repeat them with few errors. But, if I try to see those numbers on the watery blackboard of my mind, I have a lot of trouble.
It's sort of like the person giving the number test writes the list of numbers on the boards of a rickety rope bridge, then tells me to walk across the bridge and read the numbers out loud as I go. The bridge starts to crumble behind me and some boards drop out in front of me from the vibration. By the time I get to the other side, very little is left of the bridge and the test giver doesn't understand why I can't cross the bridge again and read the numbers backwards.
Puzzle Pieces
My memory reminds me of puzzle pieces. Sometimes whole sections of the puzzle are together which means that I can remember a nice chunk of the past and other times the pieces are totally scattered and some are even temporarily lost under a seat cushion. I never know how much I might remember from day to day.
Eyesight
Informal self-analysis and opinions by Duane Alan Hahn
Flat and Painful
I'm farsighted and have esophoria or esotropia which means one of my eyes is positioned inward a little. Each eye turns off and on in a continual fight with each other for domination which gives me constant eyestrain and I see things flat (like when you watch TV). I've read that at least twelve percent of all humans have some kind of binocular vision problem. When I take the Framing Game test (holding up a thumb and focusing at a dot on the screen) 'both' thumbs are transparent then one is normal looking and the other is faint then they both go transparent again and they constantly change that way the whole time. This explains why I can't see in 3D, have a hard time reading, and have constant pain. (I discovered in 2005 that Nordic Naturals Cod Liver Oil usually eliminates that pain.)
I also have a wide field of vision, which means that my peripheral vision is better than a lot of people (the visual field ends about where my ears start). I have a hard time focusing on one thing and it seems like my brain tries to pay attention to everything at once. I have a hard time trying to find things at places such as the library because there are so many colors, words, and shapes.
A Glimpse of the 3D World
The only eye doctor I ever went to that could understand my problems was in 1985. He gave me glasses with partial prisms that allowed me to see in 3D for the first time in my life and the pain I had in my eyes finally went away. It was hard to walk while wearing them for a while. I could see and feel the space between objects which was weird. The only time I ever came close to seeing in 3D was while looking through good quality binoculars or a View-Master.
One thing I don't understand is that even though I got to see in 3D, all of my dreams stayed flat. I never even got to have one dream in 3D.
Six months to a year after I got the glasses, they stopped working. The doctor was in a different state and we didn't have any money anyway, so I never got to go back to his office. Most of the supposed 'doctors' I've been to since then didn't do the same tests and didn't take as much time. Maybe one day I'll be able to get a good quality eye exam again instead of what has been perpetrated by deficient doctors that I've been sent to over the years.
Field of View, Concentration, and Video Games
I was tested by a couple of eye doctors when I was a teen, trying to figure out what was wrong with my eyes. One of the things we found out for sure was that I have a very wide field of view, supposedly wider than the average 'normal' person. Hold your arms straight out to the side and move them forward about a half an inch. That's my field of view. I see everything in that range and have a hard time filtering anything out. When I play a game, I don't just see the little guy I'm controlling, I see the whole screen and everything else in the room that is in my field of view. It's nearly impossible for me to concentrate and focus on one thing and block everything else out. That's one of the reasons why Jeff Mintery LSD style effects bother me. Besides the effects making it harder for me to concentrate, things like strobe lights and flashing screens hurt my eyes.
Unqualified Unbeliever
In the mid 1990s, an Ophthalmologist I was sent to didn't believe in esotropia or esophoria. He said I should just learn to live with the pain because he couldn't see anything wrong with my eyes. I spent more time in this guy's waiting room than I did in his examination room. I've been told by many people that Ophthalmologists don't know as much as Optometrists and I have no doubt about that because after I told this quack that I used to have glasses that relieved my eyestrain which also made me see in 3D, he didn't want to hear about it. He just kept saying that I should learn to live with it.
Upper-Class Clueless
The statement, "learn to live with it" is often used by the unenlightened because it's so much easier than being up-to-date on the latest studies and technology. Most well-adjusted professionals with comfortable lives have no clue what it's like to have various problems, so they spout their stale, ignorant, one-size-fits-all drivel and double-talk. The main problem with most of these people isn't that they want you to learn how to live with your problems, it's that they think you can instantly become "normal" just by willing it.
You can't let people with no imagination and an outdated education talk you out of looking for answers. Many of the doctors and other professionals I've seen so far seem to leave college with the idea that their education is over. People like that cannot be trusted. If they're not up-to-date, they're useless. People who aren't that sharp are never on the cutting edge.
Update
In January of 2004, I got new glasses. The constant eyestrain I was having was almost all gone when I wore them, but I still couldn't see in 3D. The pain in my eyes came back, but the glasses were still better than nothing.
In March of 2005, I started taking Nordic Naturals Cod Liver Oil capsules and about a week later, I could see better without my glasses and the pain in my eyes was gone. I still can't see in 3D, but at least my vision is better and most of the pain is gone. The pain still comes back when I get really tired, though, but that's a sign that I should go to bed.
Jump List
Asperger's Links
USA Weekend article from July 18, 1999. The first time I ever heard of Asperger's Syndrome.
Asperger's theory does about-face
A groundbreaking study suggests people with autism-spectrum disorders such as Asperger's do not lack empathy – rather, they feel others' emotions too intensely to cope.
What is the difference between autism and Asperger syndrome?
"Online Asperger Syndrome Information and Support."
Families of Adults Afflicted with Asperger's Syndrome.
A charity featured on Donald Trump's The Apprentice. Their goal is to find answers for all who struggle with autism.
"A Refuge For All Displaced Aspergians."
"Autism - and its milder cousin Asperger's syndrome - is surging among the children of Silicon Valley. Are math-and-tech genes to blame?"
What Asperger's syndrome has done for us
"Michelangelo might have had it. So, too, may Einstein, Socrates and Jane Austen. All are claimed to have had Asperger's syndrome, a form of autism. What is it about this developmental disorder that can lead to genius?"
Food & Supplement Links
Autism, Asperger Syndrome and Failsafe
If your child's behavior did not improve on the Feingold diet, you could try a more restrictive 'few-foods' diet.
Offers a comprehensive nutritional supplement (SpectrumComplete HypoAllergenic Formula) which incorporates a wide spectrum of nutrients to address many facets of autism spectrum disorders, ADHD and other developmental disorders. Be sure to check out Kirkman's Hypoallergenic Super Nu-Thera Capsules while you are there.
"Wheat- and dairy products contain opioid peptides influencing endorphin receptors in the brain. These peptides are physically addictive, causing dependence, asthma, obesity, apathy, ignorance and numbness. The same goes for beta-carbolines from prepared food. To be sharp and investigative, you ought to consume neither dairy- nor wheat-products. You don't need those ‘foods’ at all…All wheat-products, like bread, pasta, pizza, cookies, cake and pastries contain opioid peptides. The roman rulers already new that the people wouldn't rise against them as long as they were entertained and fed bread…Because some wheat-opioids are extremely powerful, some schizophrenics can even be cured by not eating any wheat-products…"
How Mercury Causes Brain Neuron Degeneration
Mercury Links
How Mercury Causes Brain Neuron Degeneration
"Mercury has long been known to be a potent neurotoxic substance, whether it is inhaled or consumed in the diet as a food contaminant. Over the past 15 years, medical research laboratories have established that dental amalgam tooth fillings are a major contributor to mercury body burden. In 1997, a team of research scientists demonstrated that mercury vapor inhalation by animals produced a molecular lesion in brain protein metabolism, which was similar to a lesion seen in 80 percent of Alzheimer-diseased brains. Recently completed experiments by scientists at the University of Calgary's faculty of medicine now reveal, with direct visual evidence from brain neuron tissue cultures, how mercury ions actually alter the cell membrane structure of developing neurons."
"Mercury is a known neurotoxin that can affect the brain, heart, and immune system and that poses particular risks for children and developing fetuses. There is evidence to suggest that even low-level exposure may contribute to learning disabilities, developmental delays, and other serious problems, such as autism."
"After two-and-one-half months of taking vitamin A and D in cod liver oil, my son announced, “I can read now! The letters don’t jump around on the page anymore!” He is able to focus and his handwriting has improved dramatically."
"Mercury is a powerful poison. Published research has shown that mercury, even in small amounts, is more toxic than lead, cadmium and even arsenic. Some of the most common signs and symptoms of mercury exposure include irritability, fits of anger, lack of energy, fatigue, low self-esteem, drowsiness, decline of intellect, low self-control, nervousness, memory loss, depression, anxiety, shyness/timidity and insomnia."
Summaries of the latest research concerning amalgam fillings.
Symptoms of Chronic Mercury Poisoning
Read the symptoms and take a mercury test.
"Regardless of whether these toxins are the carcinogenic chemicals that have become an everyday part of our lives or the poisonous mercury amalgam materials still being used to fill dental cavities by the majority of dentists practicing today, CyChroMax P-450 will help to neutralize the 'free radical' activity these create, and support your liver's natural elimination pathways and thus reduce your potential for falling prey to the diseases they can cause."
The incidence of autism has increased from 1 in 10,000 in the 1970s to 1 in 150 today, an increase of over 6,000%. Many more children have been diagnosed with other neurodevelopmental disorders all considered to be on the same spectrum including Asperger's, ADHD/ADD, speech delay, and many other developmental delays and learning disabilities.
What are amalgam fillings made of?
"Amalgam is often referred to, misleadingly, as silver amalgam. Because mercury makes up 50%, and silver only 30%, it should be referred to as mercury amalgam."
Patient Rights and Dental Amalgams
"Mercury has been known to be a poison for thousands of years, whether "ingested, inhaled, or absorbed through the skin." In the 1800's, British workers who used mercury in the hat making process developed symptoms of mental deterioration on an industry-wide basis. The expression, "mad as a hatter," originated from that.."
"Working to Abolish Mercury Amalgam Dental Fillings."
Eyesight Links
Success with Learning Disabilities: Autism Spectrum Disorders and Eyesight
Distracted Child? It Might Be His Eyes
Convergence Insufficiency Disorder.
What is Convergence Insufficiency?
Words appear to move, jump, swim or float? Frequent loss of place? Trouble remembering what was read? Sleepiness during the activity? Short attention span? Inability to concentrate? Problems with motion sickness and/or vertigo?
Test your 3D vision.
Stereo Vision Starts with Two Views
Good Vision Isn't Just About Good Glasses
A variety of fairly common, correctable conditions may be causing distractibility, eye strain, tiredness, headaches and poor comprehension for you or your child.
Vision Therapy, Autism, and Sensory Integration
Eye charts used by schools only measure clearness and sharpness of eyesight at a distance of 20 feet, but do not test for eye tracking, aim, teaming, depth perception or visual perceptual skills.
What is a Binocular Vision Impairment?
A binocular vision impairment is any visual condition that results in partial or total loss of stereoscopic vision and binocular depth perception.
"Comprehensive information on lazy eye, crossed eyes, cross-eyed, squint, eye muscle surgery, strabismus, eye deviations, etc."
"Thanks to Vision Therapy, I Gained Binocular Depth Perception" by Rachel Cooper.
"Lazy eye, crossed eyes, wandering eyes, esotropia, exotropia, exophoria, esophoria, convergence insufficiency, accommodative, hyperopia, esotropia"
"Attention Deficit Disorder (ADD), attention deficit hyperactive disorder, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder, and Vision Therapy or Visual Training"
An Eye Doctor answers questions about vision therapy, visual training, eye exercises and more.
Irlen Syndrome/Scotopic Sensitivity Syndrome
Provides a unique service for children and adults with reading, attention, and learning difficulties using color.
Quote about Binocular Depth Perception
"Since I've acquired stereo vision, people ask me to describe what it was like when I didn't have it. Here is a very short answer. The visual world looked flat. It felt like I was here and everything I was looking at was over there. I couldn't visually perceive or measure the space between me and other objects. Now that I see in 3D it feels like I am IN the world. Empty space looks and feels palpable, tangible — ALIVE!"
TBI Links
Snowdrop: What is the cause of autism?
"We should not forget that autism can also be caused by brain-injury, that an insult to the brain can produce the same effects as can abnormal development of the brain, which may have been caused by genetic and other environmental factors. I have seen too many children who have suffered oxygen starvation at birth, who have gone on to display symptoms of autism or Asperger’s syndrome. So, it is my view that autism can also be caused by brain-injury."
Traumatic Brain Injury Knowledge Base
A free resource on traumatic brain injury: causes, symptoms, treatment, and more.
"Thanks largely in part to an increasing body of research, Biofeedback is gaining acceptance as a viable alternative to medication in treating ADD/ADHD and related disorders. It is also used to combat a host of other problems like: autism, depression, anxiety, brain trauma and seizures."
Semi-Related Links
Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
"A psychological injury that results from protracted exposure to prolonged social and/or interpersonal trauma with lack or loss of control, disempowerment, and in the context of either captivity or entrapment, i.e. the lack of a viable escape route for the victim."
"A partial or complete disruption of the normal integration of a person’s conscious or psychological functioning."
"Characterized by a pervasive pattern of social inhibition, feelings of inadequacy, extreme sensitivity to negative evaluation, and avoidance of social interaction."
Borderline Personality Disorder
"The disorder typically involves unusual levels of instability in mood; black and white thinking, or splitting; the disorder often manifests itself in idealization and devaluation episodes, as well as chaotic and unstable interpersonal relationships, self-image, identity, and behavior; as well as a disturbance in the individual's sense of self. In extreme cases, this disturbance in the sense of self can lead to periods of dissociation."
"A schizothymic individual displays a flat affect and a high degree of introversion, withdrawing from social relations generally. . ."
"A milder form of bipolar II disorder consisting of recurrent mood disturbances between hypomania and dysthymic mood."
"Defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated energy levels, cognition, and mood with or without one or more depressive episodes."
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